..[[ I'm wishing on a star ]]..

bored..definitely

2005-03-28T15:19:00.000+08:00

wee.. hehe.. from the tone of my voice.. its a definite that i'm feeling bored yet happy.. i'm in the school library right now.. and yes.. i can blog.. muahaha.. couldnt be happier.. i havent blogged in eons honestly.. all thanks to my sister.. which made my dad ban the site from my com.. what the heck really.. well, school's been okie for me currently.. going for drama later on needless to say.. both grace and lihui didnt turn up for school.. wonder whats up.. dont really have much to say at the moment.. most probably.. i'll start my own blog under a paid domain name and my host shall then be zul yay!! but i have to pay 15 dollars when he pays only 7.. oh well.. things and policies do change dont they? finally the long wait has been over.. the old folks are gone for exactly 9 months before their return.. lets have fun till then i suppose.. =) oh well.. suppose i should go now.. hehe..

My Last

2004-12-27T11:55:00.000+08:00

Oh well. This is going to be my last post here for now. Till I can once again access to blogger at home. So yep. My new url http://www.livejournal.com/users/mistedskies I am so gonna miss this I really am. Anyway, school's gonna start next monday, 3rd Jan. Meaning another year of studying and all. Lol. Well, I did a little magic to fix the taggy of something. Hehe. Only Cider knows lol. Oh well. So yep off to livejournal then. For now. ^^ Seeya folks.

Hmpt

2004-12-21T22:05:00.000+08:00

Well, first off, I decided to starve so that I can save up enough by chinese new year to buy the damn phone. Then, continue to starve so that i have enough to buy the photoshop CS which costs are fucking 15oo dollars and the upgrade pack for er 300 plus i think. Apple sells it for 2500 dollars. Thats insane! So yeah and once I buy it, haha get straight to work. Though I think Nic has photoshop or PSP. Shall ask her. And yeah I will make you one Sean. Tidus is so cute ^_^.

Frogs

2004-12-21T14:28:00.000+08:00

So lets see, both Sean and Cider has frogs weirdly. Have frogs become the latest pets? Seems like people these days like keeping weird pets. Ha perhaps new trend lol. Poor Sean, his frog died. And no Sean, unless you separate them during meal times, they dont know how to share. They are frogs remember? I'm curious though, how your frogs look like? I really must see them sometime. Dont worry too much about the frogs. They live in ponds by the way. Not tanks. o.0 haiz..Feeling a little better but Sam's sick. Poor thing. *hugs* I need a new pet!! I want 12 arctic foxes, 1 arctic wolf, 1 golden retriever and 1 silky terrier. So yeah. Ha I added a new pet to the list. I am in terrible need of something. Like, the digital cam for example. Stupid Josh. And the photoshop CS. I swear once I get it, I'll start messing with it day and night. I need to make some skins for my blog. Real light and anime, and real dark and gothic.

Let's see, a naruto one for Shane. A final fantasy one for myself. A inuyasha for grace ha. And erm Nat..Oh yeah Nat..Let's see..Hmm..I'm gonna make something real cute and sweet for her. A winter sonata for mom. A anime one for my sister. And something for Sean. Perhaps rikku? And I can make a Jesse McCartney one ha!! Yay! So happy though I haven even gotten it yet. -_- Must look so silly. *dies* And of course Gareth. I will never forget you I promise.

There's so much i have to do. So yeah I decided, to go to poly. Haha so I have like 7 months off before school starts in July. So yeah to california, florida then back home start sleeping 24/7 (as if) lol.. And making skins and avatars and icons and buttons and banners. I'm not gonna work part-time after my O Levels while waiting for my results and for school. Dont see the point. But I might be bored though. So just amuse myself with things. Too bad i cant go to official clubs yet. Not yet 18. They should have under-age clubs like in Australia. Loads of erm in Brisbane when I went. Too bad mom and dad were there. Or I would be dancing the whole time. I sure love dancing big time. Like on prom night this year. Oh boy I danced so much till Jasper had to pull me away from the guy I was dancing with. Jasper disapproves of dancing and dirty dancing. Oh heck.

Ha Dave dirty dances cool! But still Dave..Dont tell me that anymore alright?..I still remember Dave's gonna be my partner when we dance if I do ever go to holland that is. Feel so sad, I have dutch blood yet I never went there before. I need more roxy and billabong stuffies!!!!!! I want more tees!! And I need a new bikini anyway -_- . . Am sick of the one I'm always wearing. Either brand is fine with me. Ripcurl is also okie. Cant wait till I move to brisbane for my university. Gonna rock brisbane big time parties at night. Gonna learn surfing though the Australian waters are infested with sharks. But if one dont, whats the point of living in brisbane when its called a "surfers paradise" ? And you dont surf? Thats gotta be the biggest joke of the century. Still, I will risk it. Its for the trill and fun. Its kinda like california a bit. Loads of beaches and all. But much more sharks heh. But I love the water there, its crystal clear. But damn cold even when I went there in summer. -_-"" Relax Sam. I'll be just fine.

Nothing Much

2004-12-20T19:15:00.000+08:00

Let's see. Just read Wess's blog. Yeah stop smoking wess. I'm not naggina but seriously I hate smokers..And since you're my friend hell man. Besides, what good will it do to you anyway? Talked to Sam on MSN then on cokemusic for a while. Stupid sis keeps on annoying me. Am tired and sick. Grr..this year's christmas is gonna suck big time.

First of, the two very idiotic grandparents are flying down to Singapore to "visit" me. ( thanks but i hate you ) And purposely on christmas day itself so that means we have to fucking hell go to the airport to fetch them. Yeah whatever shit I'm not moving anywhere! So yeah Mom's planning to have the christmas dinner on christmas eve instead. Fuck the bloody family.

So irritating. *pouts* Hmm..I still have pretty much holiday homework to finish and damn school's starting soon. Lol..Yeah you better get your long pants Wess before school starts. So i shall lock myself to my mp3 player and hide myself between my books and be nice and do my homework. *rolls eyes* I so do not feel like returning to school. Oh heck whatever.

Darn

2004-12-19T23:40:00.000+08:00

Let's see today sucked big time. I am feverish yes I am. Went out during the day and slept most of the afternoon. I am indeed falling ill oh no heh probably already sick since I dont feel well at all. Done some math homework, watched shrek on tv and had dinner that Mom bought home for me. Am making a list of cds that I need and want to buy so yeah heh I have loads of erm. Gonna get so broke. I miss him so much. I hardly even get to talk to him at all for the past two days. But hey..Another 20 minutes before its 1 week and 2 days..

Yay!! Weirdly, we went out on the 12/12/2004 cute date huh? ^_^ So its so easy to remember 12/12/2004 perfect date. Same day and same month..Hehe..Dont really feel like doing much except Mom wants me to go with her to the office tomorrow..So yeah high time I finish my math or I'll have to await my death when school starts. Sum 41 rocks!!! Haiz..

1 week

2004-12-18T17:04:00.000+08:00

hehe 1 week..so happy hahaz..ooh dave's being a good daddy to the kids hahaz..lets see..i bought the jesse mccartney cd today at HMV..Couldnt be more happier though it costs $22. But heck..Am so happy..Then, I still have loads more to buy to be honest. It would be really nice if my folks could buy the entire cd store for my birthday. *dreams* lol. Er sorry people..But I'm feeling kinda pissy today..

Again

2004-12-17T17:01:00.000+08:00

No way, server 3 is down again. This morning it was still in working condition than, this afternoon, it went down. Duff!!!! *screams* Whats going on?? Argh..and no, I cant sell my damn phone cause i need to trade in first..*cries* So yeah I have to find and save $660 cold hard cash!! So fucked up..I dont even feel the christmas mood in me. Though, I saw one billabong tee this afternoon..Its soo cute ^_^..The christmas tree isnt up. The 2 annoying people are coming to stay real soon. How bad can life get?

Nokia 6260

2004-12-17T01:38:00.000+08:00

Good morning everyone!! Its past midnight indeed. A friday morning!! And the sky looks like it could rain any minute soon. Anyway, mom trade-in her panasonic x70 so she had to pay and extra of $450 for the Nokia 6260. Anyway, I'm gonna do the same with both my cell-phones. So people, please do not call me during this period. I still can be contacted through my house phone.

I am still keeping my old number so dont worry. So yeah I'm gonna at around $200 for selling both my nokia 8250 and nokia 6610 so yeah I'll be phoneless till feb or so where, I'm gonna save in order to buy the phone at $660. Yup gonna buy it using my money. And yes I am very much in love with the nokia 6260 loved it a long tim ago. So yeah I have to start starving myself in order to buy the phone.

Rocks man loves all the features, digital camera, radio, speakers, video recording, voice recording, dictionary which translate chinese to english and the other way round, n-gage games in the nokia 6260, mms..Loads of suffies for me to play with..Yay!! Christmas is just next saturday lovely!So yeah next feb, my maid and i, will be going together. She's getting the nokia 7260 I think or something like that..While I'll be getting the 6260.

Ooh and the guy that served us today at the shop? Yeah he was real helpful, patient and quite cute though he is easily 6 years older than I am. Mom says he's cute too. Lol.. I've got to work damn fucking hard for next year. Gonna have loads of competition. So lets see, I have to juggle studies, student councillor duties, drama practices, english debate and perhaps cheerleading yeah..

I might not join cheerleading though. Doubt I have the time for practices to be honest with all those prefect duties. *pouts* So girls, you heard me..No lunch as of next yr..Maybe once in a blue moon..Otherwise, let's hang out at the library..Lol..And talk aimlessly..We have so much catching up to do especially when we're in different classes. So annoying I hate having to split classes with my close buddies.

Oh yeah we will have the same lunch period as Alan..Jasper and Shari!! Argh..Johannes..Please..I dont like you I swear so please stop bugging me..Grace..Aini help me!!!!!! Jo hangs out at the library too. *dies* Am pretty disgusted to be honest. Am so gonna miss Amber and Zul! We're so not fated to be in the same class ever since we started high school.. Damn..You girls have to protect me the same way you protected me from dominick..

Well, I'll be waking up at 7am to follow mom to her office before heading to the mall to sell the phone so yup..I need sleep..And yeah Shades and Aistaraina are currently mating. Daves er good with this graphic mating thingy? We're gonna have 4 kids.. Yup..I want Skye and Paris..Shade's gonna take care of the other two.. *smiles* Dave's gonna make a great dad to be honest.

Beautiful Soul Lyrics

2004-12-16T11:05:00.000+08:00

Chorus:
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Verse 1:
I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

Chorus:
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
(Your beautiful soul, yeah...)

Verse 2:
You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind, if you give me the chance
I'll never make you cry, c'mon let's try

Chorus:
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beatiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Bridge:
Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby, do you think you could want me too?
I don't want to waste your time
Do you see things the way I do?
I just wanna know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

Chorus:
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I won't let another minute go to wasteI want you and your soul
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Ohhhhhh, ohhhhhh
Beautiful soul, yeah yeah yeah yeah
Ohhhhhhhh, yeah
Your beautiful soul, yeah yeah yeah...
Beautiful Soul

Because You Live Lyrics

2004-12-16T10:35:00.000+08:00

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back
Like a wake-up call

I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know, what I didn't know

CHORUS
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live girl
My world...
Has twice as many stars in the sky

It's all right.
I survived.
I'm alive again.
'Cause of you, made it through every storm
What is life? What's the use?

If you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone who...
Was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly looking in your eyes

REPEAT CHORUS

Because you live... I live
Because you live, there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me
Always...

REPEAT CHORUS

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live girl
My world...Has everything I need to survive
Because you live... I live, I live

Duff

2004-12-15T20:52:00.000+08:00

Duff you rock!! Yay!! My two babies are finally up. I waited so long before I finally saw my websites..Misses them alot. I love you Duff!! Thank you so much!! *hugs* *dances I love jesse mccartney* Sam has competition..Hmm..*nods* Lol..I need a new email account..Damn too much mails..And yes I am interested in magic and witchcraft so what? Sue me if you dont.

Yay Yay!!

2004-12-15T19:14:00.000+08:00

Today so far is the best day out of the entire holidays. First, I slept at like 2.15am then woke up at 7am to go down to grandma's house. Then, we ran our errands then, went to grandma's house so that she could pack her stuff. Yup she is staying over at our place for sometime hehe. *bashes sean* He's not coming to stay coz he "needs" to get a "job" lol.. I swear I could laugh my ass off when he text messaged me yesterday night.

Yup, then, we went to the interchange to eat. In fact, only Mom and grandma ate. I was er on some kinda hunger strike. I skipped breakfast and lunch. Only had dinner. Anyway, Mom opened the letter box, and I got my cell-phone bill. For once, in my entire freaking life, I only sent 90 text messages this month. Totally unbelievable! Though, I had my phone off most of the time so.. Then, came the delightful part. I was talking to Sam, when mom yelled my name.

So I ran out to the living room and see what the hell she was calling me for, when she gave me the letter. My eyes were sparkling with delight and excitement to be honest. Second year running that I got my scholarship! Couldnt be more happier. So as usual, when I am extremely happy, I would start jumping around the house and screaming. Even rocky thought I was mad *laughs*.. Yup yup.. Grace, benedict next year, Jan 15 is the ceremony at 10am.

Hope he gets in too though. Weirdly, its not at the same place as it was last year. Who cares though hopefully benedict's gonna be there hehe.. And yesh I love to be cuddled who dont? Ahh..ooh and yeah 4 days!! Can I say something? I love Jesse McCartney!! He is soooo cute.. And my favourite songs are Beautiful Soul which is currently playing on meh blog, Because you live, She's no you, Why dont you kiss her? this few are my favourite tracks.

I have to get the cd no matter what..*whines* Argh..I seem to be whining alot these few days..Sam got jealous when I kept talking about Jesse McCartney earlier this afternoon.. Awww..*hugs* lol.. Then, after we chatted, I went to bed straight. Gosh, my head was hurting like hell. Hmmm..

tata dum

2004-12-14T16:56:00.000+08:00

Okie well, I got real bored, so I decided to change my blog's layout. Then, when I did, it looked so terrible, that I decided to stick back to this instead. Yup yup 3 days!! So happy. Lol..I miss him already..And yeah I've linked you Cider. Yup..Well, I have erm heh done a little bit of research only so far so good. Found a web forum for witches I reckon. Its gonna help me in my writing anyway so yeah no harm checking it out..

So while I am patiently waiting for my two websites to be revive by Duff again, I shall go do some homework. *winks* Lets review my life a little bit..Hmm..This is what I've done so far in my life..Erm did my first play when I was 11. Yup, modelled before, done cheerleading, acting yes duh..What else..Cant really think my mind is blocked..I wanna host shows thats fun..I haven tried it before though..

What crap am I talking about? Obviously there are loads of stuffs that I haven done. Like, surfing yup..Wake-boarding..Snow-boarding..and stuffs..Ahh yep..The witchy witch website..

Oops

2004-12-14T13:26:00.000+08:00

Oh no wait, I dont have to take a freaking minute coz I could just do it right now. Fuck really!!! Argh.. Duff's just got a new hardware so yeah its gonna take him days to transfer all the data over before its up.. No way!! >.< *cries* Okie fine maybe I wouldnt be so evil about it. Duff's only 17. Er heck okie fine I thought he was like erm heh Iceworks and all. Sorry duff!! *hugs* And he lives in Maryland, USA.

Someone tell me where's that? And its rumored that the hardwares are in Dallas? Dallas is in erm Texas I think.. Weirdly Daddy thinks its best if I studied Bio or Computer stuffies like himself..He was a bio student..And a computer science student too.. Seth makes me so I cant describe it.. He's like some sorta inspiration really Seth Kinast. And nope he isnt Seth on The OC. Oh yeah and yes Seth, I use firefox. Only thingy is, I have no idea whats going on. SO yep my com has both IE and firefox.. -_-..

Seriously, I think I owe Duff an apology.. Heh..Shall go do it now.. Darn..I mean, both person and hardware are in different places so yeah. And then again, he's only 17!! My god, thats extremely fantastic for a 17 year old. He created one of the world's leading forum host. Hmmm..I still feel like dying if my baby doesnt come on as soon as possible..

argh..

2004-12-14T13:10:00.000+08:00

Argh..Trust me, I could just commit suicide in a minute.. My baby is down!! Argh, >.< sever 3 is down!! *cries* Duffman's trying to fix it but still.. I woke up this morning, went online and found out my baby disappeared. Seriously, I have no idea when will Adrasteia be back.. Why must it be sever 3?? Thats no fair.. I hope all my site's data is still around.. *cries* ..Now, where's that Sam? *pouts*.. Erm Sean, I'll call you later perhaps okie?

Contacts

2004-12-13T16:27:00.000+08:00

Yup. So officially, today is the 2nd day of our relationship lol. Okie..Hehe I got AIM today..Only on this computer though. And I found out something. Daddy altered the administrator controls and prevent me from downloading practically anything. So unfair. So yes only when I'm using the laptop, will I be able to use MSN. And only MSN. As for YIM and AIM, only when I come here. Anyway, my MSN is amandachng@hotmail.com my YIM is amandachng ( email for yahoo is amandachng@yahoo.com.sg ) and finally, my AIM is Aistaraina. I wanted some other name, but none was available. *pouts* I'm at Mom's office again. Feeling really sleepy I say. Slept real late and got up real early this morning. Yep, well, I found some names that I could use in my book hehe. And some really good sites and guides to help me along the way.

So yep, the book is entitled "Dreams Beyond The Mists : The Awakening Of Time" Yep well,its a medival cum fantasy story. Its gonna be really long so I have to do loads of research on it as I really want it to be done nicely and properly with as much information I have. Of course, if I do get the chance to publish it, why not? Which is why, I choose to be a journalist. I really love and enjoy writing to be honest. Poetry too! Well, I'm gonna stay up tonight to finish my holiday assignments. Damn the teachers. I have erm loads of math. I'm currently doing my english. And I still have the hitler project I'm half way through. *dies*

Saw Sherwin when I went for lunch this afternoon. Idiot really, he retained and did not get promoted to the next yr. Too bad. *dies* Presley is gonna be in the same class as me next year. And, the worst thing is, he talks to me non stop. Since we started high school, he always change sits and sit in front of me, with his back turned to the teacher, and him facing him. I have to even share my desk. Omg. Am gonna be in so much trouble again if he does that. Not only cant i concentrate in class, I get distracted the whole time. Grrrr..Grace? Do you want to join me in cheerleading for next yr? Or english debate. Choose. I am in need, in fact, terrible need of a proper holiday. Am gonna smack josh up when he returns. Weirdly, Cider and Sean keep frogs as pets. Seriously Sean, I have to see those frog of yours that you call "adorable" 0.O"' So yeah I'm gonna link Cider..But I need to go rest now..

Something to remember

2004-12-12T22:01:00.000+08:00

Well, I reckon today is one day worth remembering. Sam asked me to be his girlfriend. So yep, we're a couple lol. Thanks Nat. Hear that Sam? ( points to tag board ) You better take good care of me. Or people like Grace is gonna run after you. Hehe. Well, I stayed home the entire day. Online too. Got up round after noon. Yep. Then Dad cooked lunch. Dinner was weird I tell ya. The udon was supposed to be soup-based but my maid fried it. And it taste real odd. *laughs* I'm very surprised that Sam did not know what were prawns. Its also called shrimps silly. Lol. And then he told me they were shrimps, and i keep on laughing because well they are shrimps anyway.

Anime Stuffies 2

2004-12-11T22:45:00.000+08:00

You want a sweet guy. Who'ld take you anywhere.
Like Japan!!! Wow I would like a guy like that
too:) Also he looks so cute in japanese
clothing:)

Your element is Light: Innocent, beautiful,
kind-hearted and pure. You are so sweet your
almost angelic, you find joy in others
happiness and cannot stand to see anyone in
pain. You want to make everyone around you feel
good about themselves and if someone is upset
you can tend to become rather upset as well
which means you are sympathetic and raise
others above yourself. Being as kind and
good-natured as you are people have most likely
hurt you in the past but you pick yourself up
every time. You may look fragile but you are
stronger than most tend to see. Life is
beautiful no matter how you look at it and you
understand that people make mistakes, not
everyone is perfect. You try to see the good in
the bad which is a talent few posses, dont ever
let anyone change you. You truly have a
beautiful soul inside and a heart of gold.

.:-What is your true element?-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-

Anime Stuffies

2004-12-11T22:20:00.000+08:00

You have an intense kiss! You and your partner
connect when you kiss and you forget about the
rest of the world. Hey, call me!!! ^_~

What anime kiss are you?

Hmmm..

You are everybody's friend!!! Yay!!! You like
talking to thousand of people...you're friendly
and always up to a party!!!

What kind of friend are you?(anime pics)

Is he the one?

2004-12-10T14:37:00.000+08:00

Well, I'm currently at Mom's office playing around as usual. Sam went offline a few minutes ago because he has to sleep. Heh. Anyway, we had a very interesting conversation today which i saved. Well, I have some parts of the convo that I wanna preserve so here it is..Hehe..Well anyway this was what Sam typed :

"
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says: have u ever thought abt having kids?
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: At times
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: But not too much, for you see I don't think THAT far into the future
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says: yeah..lol..i know..guys as always
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: heh what is that supposed to mean?
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says: well, you see guys dont always plan for the future now do they?
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: Most guys
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says: plus u sometimes
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: I do... just not like 10 to 20 years from now
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says: how many kids do you wanna have?
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: I would say round 2 or 3
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: too much and it would be a big hassle
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: And 1 just isn't... well probably isn't good enough
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says: yeah.. i was thinking 4
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: 4?
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says: but the giving birth part might be a killer
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: lol
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says: 2 boys 2 girls
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says: or 1 boy and 1 girl is more ideal
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: True... another reason why I try to keep it to a minimum
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: 1 boy and 1 girl
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says: yeah
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: Thats what I would want... but thats all about chance really... if there a boy or girl
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says: what are you gonna name them?
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says: i've thought of the names
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: I haven't thought of names
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says: really?
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
Like I said, I think about having kids... but not too much
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: What would you name them though?
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says: well, the boy is skye, the girl is paris
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: heh
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says: what?
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
lol to tell you the truth... those sounds like names from a video game
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: But there good choices
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: And for some reason I really like the name skye ^_^ "

First of, Skye and Paris are not names from video games. Not that I think they are. Well, Paris, is Paris as in Paris Hilton's Paris. Coz I really love Paris. Most beautiful city. Then, for Skye, I think that name came from a movie I think. Well erm as for Skye, er I dont really remember so yeah heh. Okie let me go find the others. And thank you Sam. I also like the name Skye alot hehe. Another one here :

"
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says: why is ur status set to busy? are you busy with something?
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: No
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: Just so other people don't talk to me... so I don't get distracted
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says: So I can talk to you... and only you

Isnt he sweet? Lol..hahaz.. I only put the busy sign coz more or less for fun yeah well. Actually, I also dont really want others to talk to me so..Yep..Another one :

"
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says:
weirdly, i've been thinking about you lately
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
Really?... like what things?
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says:
...
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says:
weird things
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
like? lol
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says:
it makes me sound real weird saying it
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
Well I wanna know if its the same thing I have been thinking
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
When im thinking about you
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says:
you say first
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
heh no, you first
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says:
you
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
you
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says:
you
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
you [Is there an echo in here?]
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says:
lol..
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says:
no way you spill it first
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
lol
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
No
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says:
we're bickering..so no way you
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
I can't really tell you anyway... cause my memory is messed up or something
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says:
sounds real convincing
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
I can never remember anything, its alwasy 'misplaced' in my head
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
I swear to god, I will try to tell you everything
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says:
good so do
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
If you tell me afterwards [See? I am bad at debating]
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says:
well, you see, i do suffer from memory loss you know..so, i need someone to start the subject so it'd freshen my memory up
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
heh alright
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
This is what I have been thinking
[[**-Mandy-**]]..love..faith..innocence..desire..hope..[ i'm completed ] -- shattered into pieces -- says:
yay
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
when thinking about you
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
It dosn't matter where I am or what time it is, one thought leads to another and it has always been ending to you latley. Everytime it is just you and me being together, hanging out, and going out... when I say going out I don't mean to have fun... I mean going out. Being together as in a couple. Cause to me thats what I really could use right now.
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
The night I cried my self to sleep... it really wasn't the crying that put me to sleep
[[**Finrod Miriel**]] says:
If anything the crying kept me up... what calmed me enough to get to sleep was you, I was thinking about you.

This sorta caught me off guard to be honest. And, the only person I talked to about is erm, oh yeah Ferdd. Yep. Ferdd was the one whom I talked to about this issue. And no Sam, you are not to go asking Ferdd about it. I'm currently, re-doing my organizer and planner. Have to get ready for the new year thats in a few more weeks. And yep christmas is approaching really soon. Yay!! Another 3 more weeks till school officially start. Meaning, more homework, practices, classes, drama, cheerleading and more torment. I doubt I wanna take up cheerleading next yr. I mean, I stop going for practices this year, so its like.. And I have english debate somemore. Ferdd, I am lost you have to help me. I cant figure it out. Confused I suppose. Omg I spent an hour typing this post.

Dreadful Life

2004-12-09T20:11:00.000+08:00

Reading Sean's blog, made me pretty much realize that yeah. Life's just like an empty canvas. The colours and patterns and designs on it, is what our life is made up of. The ups and downs we went through, the experience we had and stuff like that. Its as if, everytime something happens, we would just pick up a paint brush and start painting part of the canvas. And at the end of our lives, the painting is finally completed. Filled with loads of effort, colours, beauty, sadness, agony, anger, happiness and more importantly, the things we did and the experience we shared.

And, what appears to be painted on that canvas, is our life. Since the day we were born, that canvas was given to us. And as time goes by, we find time to paint it using the many different colours to suit our mood and happenings. And when we pass on to the after life, its when, we carefully take a look at our finished work. The painting of that empty canvas, its mere imagination some may say. But, I do believe it exist. Just like this blog, it reflects everything that happened because we take the effort to remember it. To write it down. Its just like that canvas.

Life's a bitch. Thats totally true. Its never fair. And we dont always get what we want in life. I never really enjoyed talking about my childhood to anyone. And, some people may just think that I am, a spoilt rich brat who knows nothing. They're so wrong. I've got through things more than those my age. Not even my closest friends know. I almost lost my life even before I was born. Dad kicked my mom's tummy when she was pregnant with me. And she suffered a miscarriage. I was on the verge of death.

When I was a kid, Dad used to wack us up including Mom none the less. He was very abusive. He's bad-tempered. Basically, he's a lunatic believe it or not. Some may think that I have a happy family a fantastic childhood. But no. No one knows all these time I have been living in the shadows. My true self hiden from the outside world. My social life in school is real different from who I truely am inside.

I look strong headed and stubborn on the outer side, but in fact, I'm real afraid and vulnerable. If I dont act strong, there is no way am I going to survive in this society. And everything is a challenge. I have to fight for survival and I need to fight to win. Winning in the sense as to be first. To stay on top of things. People say I'm way too matured for my age but so what? Fuck it! I'm forced to grow up. Do I look like I have any choice? It may seem like a lie. But trust me. It isnt so simple as it looks.

Mom really went through alot for me and my sister to be honest. And I odd to be grateful to her that I'm still alive at the moment. Just like Christina Aguilera's song : "I'm ok" I shall type out the lyrics as it relates a whole lot to my life. This song can be found on her "stripped" album track number 19.

I'm Ok Lyrics
Once upon a time there was a girl
In her early years she had to learn
How to grow up living in a war that she called home
Never knew just where to turn for shelter from the storm
It hurt me to see the pain across my mother's face
Everytime my father's fist would put her in her place
Hearing all the yelling I would cry up in my room
Hoping it would be over soon

Chorus :
Bruises fade father but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
And every morning that I wake I look back at yesterday
And I'm ok

I often wonder why I carry all this guilt
When it's you that helped me put up all these walls I've built
Shadows stir at night through a crack in the door
Echoes of a broken child screaming please no more
Daddy dont you understand the damage you have done
For you its just a memory but for me it still lives on

Chorus

It's not so easy to forget, all the marks you left along her neck
When I was thrown against cold stairs
And everyday afraid to come home in fear of what I might see next

Chorus

This song really means alot and it shows everything. And, not everyone understands it and understands what I've been through. I dont want no sympathy nor pity. I'm fine just as I am. Some how, this particular album of Christina, who I so happens, to have the cd. Anyway, yeah well, this isnt the only song I can relate to there are loads more. But, this one song relates more to the way how my dad treated my mom and I. Well, anyway, just wanna blog that I went to watch National Treasure today evening.

Student Councillor Party

2004-12-08T14:07:00.000+08:00

Heh..I went for the student councillor party yesterday night..In case if some of you dont know whats that, student councillors are also called prefects. Except, prefects are the term we use in Elementary School. Anyway, got to school at around 4.36 or so. Then Nicholas as usual the crazy nonsense coming from him. We played wacko. Stupid really I and Yong Lin must tag-team. So yeah.. And I mean, can you imagine how many student leaders are there? I could hardly remember their names.

So it was kinda annoying. We look like idiots trying to find the right person. Hmm.. I only know pretty much the upper level people.. Like Nicholas, Justin, Yong Lin, Lay Queen, Sharifah, Daren, then the guys in my level, Steve, Axel, Darryl, Andy, Shaq, then Jess, Ryan, Amalina, Faizal, Edmund and June. Yep so there. Faizal was looking real cute.. *rolls eyes* Sharifah claims I fancy him.. So nonsense.. *smacks sharifah* And Sya was erm like flirting with him the whole period. Though she already has a boyfriend.

Its the last time I would see him. Talking about Faizal. Its his last year of high school. So, he will be off to college next year..Whatever..Yay Yay, the linkin park and Jay-z collision cd rocks!!! Dirt of your shoulder and the Numb encore.. Hehe.. Too bad NC-16, so I'll get mom to buy since I'm not 16 yet..Darn..Hmmm..Mom and Charmaine went out with Grandma and her gang to pray today. So yep.. I'm alone at home with my dog and the maid..So bored..And, I'm starving myself.. For no stupid reason..

Girls day out

2004-12-05T19:36:00.000+08:00

Yay!! So yep Cleo rang me and Stella up yesterday and so we went out today!! Omg I missed them so much. We were friends cleo and i, best pals since like kindergarten days. Wow. Thats really long. So we went to Bedok, and had Long John Silver's I could barely eat with the braces. Then, we took the train to Tampines, there, we took neoprints. Stella and I took cards and both stickers. I look terrible when I smile. Due to idiotic braces. * pouts *

Then, we walked around somemore before taking bus 31 home. Ooh and the three of us stay real close to each other. Like just down the street. Lol. Then, we went to Cleo's house first and saw her Mom, Auntie May. And oh boy, her youngest brother is sooo adorable.. Lol. Then, upstairs to her room and we talked and laughed and joked. After that, it was over to my place. Then, we walked downstairs and chatted before we all went home.

Cleo to the left, I live in the middle, and Stella on the right. Its really nice to bond back with your old friends after such a long period of time, when all of us had grown up and all. And Yay!! Cleo's friend lent her the FFX-2 movie and Cleo lent it to me..Hehehehehehehe..Grrr I haven check in on friendster for a while. Hehe. I still look so much better without my stupid glasses. I miss him so much. Haiz. Dont worry I dont blame you about the Guild War thingy okie?

I really hope for another of this kinda gatherings. So fun. We're all grown up now, we talk about different things. Like school, boys, fashion and stuffs. Girls day out rock big time!! Never really enjoyed myself when I'm with my other pals. Same like Sam. They, are so childish and annoying that you get so sick and tired of their stupidity and their childish ways. Dont you think so?

Periods

2004-12-01T19:20:00.000+08:00

*screams* Today's the first of december, and today so happens is that freaking day, my period arrived for this month. My tummy hurts like hell due to the amount of cramps. Being a woman is so stressful really. Slept awhile earlier before dinner. Am so tired really. *sighes* Yay!! Now, I have my favourite song on my bloggie! Zelda Wind Waker- The Ancient hero OC Remix. Its a song from a game by the way.

That, I'll have to thank Sam for it. I have the song, duh. But I dont know how to put it in. *bangs head* Like duh I totally forgot about the tags and such. Sam, is so sweet. Go look at his latest post at the bottom. Yay I wish you could come here too. But really, trust me. You'd hate it here. We have no lockers, we have to wear uniforms, we are so stressed with all the rules and everything. Heh.

I'm well, amusing myself, by playing neopets. How ahem interesting. Lol. I have no mood nor energy to do anything at all. So tired suddenly.

Hair Dye

2004-12-01T11:23:00.000+08:00

Sean had his hair dyed by my uncle..Lol..Good luckie on ur prom tonight..Damn..This year's prom was on my birthday..So what but pretty fun no doubt. Heh.. I wanna re-highlight my hair too..*whine* Though its already so freaking brownish..I miss my red hair!! The one on my avatar on my YIM..*cries* Thanks to stupid Farhan, I had to re-dye it to my original hair color. So cool. Sean finally graduated from high school..

Am currently sitting in my usual place in front of the com in Mom's office, talking to Sam, studying geography although its the holidays and blogging. Oh yeah, when I signed in to MSN earlier, there was a pop up. You know, the ones that gives you an update and such? Yeah well, Netto added me. Shane Michael Netto added me. Last time I saw him wasnt too long ago. In fact, only on Nic's birthday this 9th Nov.

Weird really the last time we saw each other. He was so grown up. Unlike the Netto I remember who sat beside me in class for two straight years lol. Still remember the time when he, me, brandon and justin I think and someone else. I cant recall who, use to sit together on 1 table, and joke about shit stuff. Lol. Those were the kiddy years as far as I could recall. Those were the days we played a fool, had loads of fun and be really silly. Lol. Hahaz, Sam's trying to explain to me what he is having for dinner. I haven eaten..Blah..So starving but have to wait for Mom to finish her work first.

Wess's soccer boots

2004-11-30T19:57:00.000+08:00

Oh well heh, I think I needed to re-type what I said earlier on. I just looked at his blog. ( points to wess's blog ) He already has gotten his gold mercurial vapor thingy. Still has that text message Wess sent me on my cell-phone. Lol. Oh yeah that was when I was at Cityhall and he asked me to go watch him play soccer. Wess, is a friend from school. Very smart guy. Lol. Lives near to my place. Same area anyway. Lol. Anyway, we met through a misunderstanding.

We use to take the same bus to school and I always wondered who he was. So did he. Until, one day this year, his classmate rang me up and said he liked me. Not knowing who he is, his mate showed me his pic. So thats Wess I said. And the mate went uh-huh. Lol. Stupid misunderstanding really lol. Wess's a great pal. Nice guy he is. Lol.

Water Heater

2004-11-30T19:36:00.000+08:00

Let's see.. I had a rather annoying day..Went to office with Mom today but we only stayed for a while. Yay!! Sam was online! FINALLY!!! *giggles* I couldnt stop feeling happy about it. I mean, its like we havent spoken for days since last week's thanks giving. I miss you alot too. ^_^ Lol..He misses me loads too. *checks sam's bloggie*

But, our convo had to cut short due to Mom wanting to leave already. So its like what the heck. I didnt mean to. I really wanna talk to you alot. And trust me when I say alot, I mean ALOT. Lol. Adrasteia has a new skin lol!!! Go check it out peeps!! ( referring to rp dudes ) Hmmm..Blitzy is being so nice..Aint gonna kick Frosty beta out.. *hugs blitz*

Jackie, we need some more people. Know of others who rp well? I wanna get the plot running. Lol.. Done some homework..Feeling unguilty anymore since I studied hehe.. One big news!! Frost ( in Adrasteia, I'm playing 2 characters ) is mates with SilverShadow. Lol. Lindz is SilverShadow by the way.

Curses about the bathrooms. First, the light went out. The switch erm, fall off the wall..Heh..Then, the water heater burst. So bloody annoying. So I helped Dad. He got a new one when he came home from work this afternoon. Really disgusting. I got drenched in brown water. Reminded me of the nile to be precise. Cant believe a month has past. Tomorrow's the first of December. Meaning the nearing of Christmas and Dad's folks coming. *stressed*

They are gonna live with us for many many many months. Before they finally pack their luggages and take the air-plane home! Grandma is always nagging about this, about that. In fact, everything! And trust me, I aint exaggerating anything. She really is a NIGHT-MARE! *pouts* And one thingy, the stupid bbq party at my house has to be cancelled. Someone else has already booked it. So we'd be going to my Godparents house instead. Yay! I haven seen my bro for ages!! Misses Simon. Lol.

Yup yup! Sean is coming on Saturday!! Lol.. Happyhappy..Am going insane..Oh and I thought about what you said in the email Sam. You're right. I'm being siao. I meant, I'm a prefect, a student councillor and I'm suppose to be good at stuffs like that. And I could make you feel differently about things. And I have to do that to myself too I reckon.

Wanted to watch Bride and Prejudice again this afternoon. Then went to Chinatown instead. To buy czech glass beads and crap. Lol made my very first own ear-ring. Still remembered that time Amber went with me and my Mom. Lol he must be bored to death looking at such stuffs. Lol. Ooh and he just bought another new soccer boots. Amber, though you are on the school team, it doesnt mean you have to own so many pairs do you? Reminds me of Wess. Wondered has he gotten the pair ronaldo wore.

I shall now go bath again for the third time today!!! Stupid weather, stupid heater, stupid no light switch thingy!!

2004-11-28T19:33:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling pretty bored at the moment. Alone more like it. Life isnt what I thought what it should be. I dont even know how to define it. Haiz. There are ups and downs yes. There are happiness and sadness. But there's always something thats always been lacking in my life. "love" I think. I haven found my true love. *dies* I think I may just become another failure when it comes to love.

I watched The Princess Diaries 1 and 2 yesterday. Wish my life could be like that of Mia Thermopolis. Robert Schwartzman was nice enough to her. *sigh* So Aistaraina has two mates on two different sites. Stressed enough for me. Frost is getting on well with Tide. Hopefully she wouldnt be banished from the pack. Sal is doing good. Lol. Guys rp. Guys like Dave rp wolves. Never knew. Lol. And Ian too.

Lol..Aistaraina is gonna be mates with Shades. Lol. *pokes Dave* Lol.. Where is SAMUEL ERIC HACKER!!!!!! *pouts* I miss him!!! Where are you??

Cooking

2004-11-27T02:15:00.000+08:00

Hehe Daddy should be on the plane by now. Lol. I made tuna sandwiches!! All by myself. Amazing!! Feels so delighted really. And the best part is, it taste great! *whines* Where is Sam?? My braces hurt now. I cant chew much nor move my mouth. I've to fight the urge not to put the braces off. *cries* *wishes someone was here to hug me*

Its, *checks clock* 2.19am on a rainy Saturday morning. And, I dont feel like sleeping. Sam, doubt he'd be up early. Since he had that LAN party thingy. Rped so long at AWW. I think I'm crazy. Amusing myself with silly little things. *sniffles* I feel so alone right now. Not in the mood to do anything. Feeling rowdy and down. Damn braces!

List of things to do

2004-11-26T19:31:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...There are alot of things, that i wanna do in this lifetime. Thus, I think, it'd be wise to list them out so I wouldnt forget about it.

- Surfing
- Snow boarding
- Bungee Jumping
- Sky Diving
- Diving
- Visit castles ( in UK and Europe )
- Go travelling ( entire europe )
- Go to Egypt
- Wake-boarding

Well, since I really like swimming, I thought, it'd be nice to do sports related to the water. Like surfing and wake-boarding for example. My favourite surfers are Kelly Slater, Danny Fuller and Myles Padaca. Damn those guys rock big time. Hmmm..Does anyone even surf in CA? I mean duh right? California is so sunny and all. During summer that is. But when it comes to surfing, its normally either Australia, Florida or Hawaii. Ooh and Layne Beachley..Omg wow! So many world titles.

I'll never be able to do that well. But I wish to take part in the pipeline masters though. Hehe.. Lucky Mom says Brisbane..Lol..The Pacific Ocean. Yeah then I'll get sun-burnt again. Needs to buy more swimsuits. I only have erm 3 or 4 at the moment. Yep and a surf board too. Coz when we move, hehe it'd be easier going surfing. Cool. I never knew Billabong, Roxy and Quiksilver all went to the States. I mean, afterall, those are Australian surf brands right?

Like when I went to Brisbane, damn I live so freaking close to the Pacific Ocean. In fact, just by the border of the shore. Lol. Surfers Paradise as they call that place. Love it there. Night life rocked! Ooh, I never knew one could earn so much just by surfing and winning competitions. I'm going back to CA after my O Levels!! Yay!! Hahaz..Winter holiday!! Florida first!! Miami beach..Hehe..

Braces

2004-11-26T17:02:00.000+08:00

Ooh..I had my upper braces band done this afternoon. Dark red in colour. Hehe I wanted silver-crystal transparent, but heck since we can change, why not have fun first? Hehe..Well, its not really painful when Doctor Lena put the wire and braces on. Its after that the pain might come in. Much later on that is. Hmmm but for me, so far it isnt pain.

Sean!!! Omg now you and I both have braces lol. The braces duo cousins lol..Hahaz..Geesh no more candy or sweet stuffs..*whines* Lol.. I feel like watching bride and prejudice again..Lol..Yay!! Alexander next thurs..Anyone wanna watch? Ooh and next monday I have student councillor party at school..Damn boring..Aini is in Malaysia then no one accompany me. Grace and Li hui also not prefects..Damn!

Orlando Bloom

2004-11-25T13:41:00.000+08:00

Yup! Here i have, wait for the linkie. Be patient. Now, as I am VERY bored, and I have no freaking idea where the hell is Sam, I decided to amuse myself a little. Lovely site really, its all about Orl darling.. Lol.

www.theorlandofiles.com

Hehe..Loads of fun stuffs to do. But erm some are really lame.. Heh..They have erm Orl paper dolls..Weird stuffs..Picture and photo gallery and such. Usual stuff. Lol..Haiz.. Mom where the hell are you? Ring you up so many times on your cell-phone no response. Now mine is low on battery. I'm going to die of boredom really!!! *whines*

Haiz..Moonlightstar is moving next week to SR..Sal is gonna cry her heart out. Oh wait I already rp that part where Sal would cry. Oh er heh..I have to play 3 chars on SR..Aistaraina, Paris and erm Vendredi..On Adrasteia, er Aistaraina and Skye..Aww..Frost..Raea and Crystal Magic as Sephoria..*dies* Lol..

Hair Cut

2004-11-24T17:41:00.000+08:00

*bounces on bed* I've got a new hair cut. *giggles* I love it really. Well, my hair is still the same length, I only had it layered. Let's see, hmm.. When to see doctor with mom and grandma in the morning, then breakfast at delifrance. Then took the train to grandma's house, sent her home then took 132 to Orchard.

And er heh, I treat mom to watch Bride and Prejudice again. 2nd time this week. I just cant help it. Martin henderson is sooooooooooooo cute!! oh heh er.. Amanda, behave amanda.. Lol.. I miss everyone! Didnt talk to Sam today. Sorry! I should be staying home tomorrow.

Yep, most likely, I'll be having a christmas party at my place down by the pool. Mom and I havent planned it yet and who to invite, but perhaps just family and a couple of friends. After all, my other grand folks will be flying down to live with us till way after the new year. *pouts*

Travelling

2004-11-23T20:43:00.000+08:00

Uh-huh so Sam and Ferdd said they were gonna go. Which is totally awesome really. Only thing is, we need to get our visas and we need money. So yep we decided to go in another 5-6 years when we saved enough money for the trip. And, that means we have to really save up for it. Blah..Lesser shopping trips to the malls..And no buying of unecessary stuffs.

*cries* It'd be rather difficult especially when I'm so crazy over shopping and fashion. I'll most probably ring Luxia up when I get to London. Then, we're gonna rent a car and take turns to drive. Currently there are only 3 of us. It isnt so wise to have too many people along too. Perhaps 4 would be good. So, I need to study real hard to ensure that I will still get my scholarship.

Monthly allowance + chinese new year's ang bao + scholarship + birthday cash. That'd be the only way for me to get money. My folks will never want and will never approve of me having vacation jobs so yeah. Ferdd and Sam, if you are reading this, better start saving up for it. Knowing myself, "saving" this word is a very big challenge for me. I mean, I hardly save. Even if I did, all the cash in my bank would be spent on shopping. Thats why ATM isnt such a good thing after all.

Paying by nets is soo easy. Too easy till you dont really bother how much you spent. Ooh and I remember the pact I made with Daddy. For my O levels, he will give me $1000 for each subject provided, I score a minimum of 5 As. Relax dad! I said I wanted and needed 7 As. So get ready your $7000. Hahaz.. Cool.. And grandpapa always give me $100 if I score between 1st to 3rd position in my studies. So does grandma..Heck..

Can you see the importance of studying? People pay you to score well. And its rather weird really. I mean, those grades that you score are gonna be with you for life right? And its for your own good. Weirdly, people pay you to study well. Lovely huh? I shall go buy another notebook to record my savings and spendings. Eeekk..

Well, Jackie, you need to edit the html template in your blog. Dont worry. It'd take a while to get use to it. And I'm certain you'd figure it out pretty soon. Well, went to office with mom today then had to rush down to pick grandma up. She has to go to the hospital for a check-up. Then on friday, I have to put the upper band and then rush for dinner with godma and Simon bro..Poor thing my godbro..*hugs*

Jackie

2004-11-22T22:10:00.000+08:00

Yay!! Jackie has a blog..*dances in happiness* Lets see..I was the one who got Sam and Jackie into blogging..Lol..Oh yeah I did..Ooh and Sean too..At the start..He abandoned the secrets of thoth one..Ooh by the way, do you know that you could change the layout and skin of your blog?

Oh and a piece of news. I finally decided that this is going to be my final blog so dont worry I get sick of having to move my blogs all over the place. So yep this can be considered "new"..Lol..Hope you'd enjoy blogging as much as I do! Sam, if you are reading this, be prepared. I have alot to talk to you over on MSN tomorrow night. As in your monday night and my tues morning. Its about the castle thingy.

Bride and Prejudice

2004-11-22T17:05:00.000+08:00

Oh lord! This movie is fantastic really. Watched it today at Orchard. And oh my goodness! Martin henderson is still as hot as ever. I mean, coming to think of the fact that he was hot in Torque too. Damn! I cant believe he was here at Singapore this year in January to promote the movie Torque. I didnt knew about it. What the heck! Omg can he come here too? To promote Bride and Prejudice?

He is sooo hot in the movie. Another fairytale to be romance cum comedy. Well, anyway, I changed my desktop wallpaper to that of bride and prejudice. Goodbye final fantasy's tidus and yuna for now. Next movie is erm yeah Alexander staring Colin Farrell..Oh well.. Maybe I might go watch Shutter too. Grrr...School for seduction is M18 which means I cant watch. And neither can I watch Saw coz its NC-16. Grrr whats with all those stupid ratings??

Martin Henderson really looks cute with long hair in both bride and prejudice and torque rather than in sweat with short hair. Geesh..He is sooo gorgeous..Omg he is older than me by 16 years. That makes him 30 years old. 0.O" Hey he's a libra too. Cool. 8th october 1974 take note. Haiz..16 years older..What the heck.. At least well.. Gareth is only 6 years my senior not so bad huh?..

I'm always living in a dream world. Always thinking of one day finding my dream prince. Somewhat like cinderella huh? Dad always says to be more practical and realistic Amanda. But I AM Dad. It doesnt HURT to just dream does it? Mom and I are more romantic and crazy over stuff like that. While Dad and Charmaine are soooo much more freaking down-to-earth. So dead, so practical. Life isnt supposed to be this way. We MUST live life to the fullest. And whats the point if you are too realistic? I mean life is gonna be so damn boring isnt it?

So regardless of what you say, I am still gonna dream about it and be realistic at the same time. So there ya go. I'm more wild and crazy. I like to live life according to my own rules. And live if the way I want it to be. So dont push nor force me. But then again, I make sure I dont hurt others along the way. After watching the movie, I kinda realize, if you were to let someone decide things for you and force you into doing things you dont want. Wouldnt make you happy. And then, whats the point of living right?

So, i'm gonna study hard, and live life the way i want it. Whether you like it or not. Coz its my life, and I only live this once. I'm gonna fulfill what i dream of and what I've always wanted. Which is to do the impossible, is possible.. As long as there is confidence and determination. I can do it..Hmmm..Just look out..I plan to score straight As for my O levels. So since I'm taking erm 7 subjects, coz I add the combine sciences and combine humanities together as 1 core so altogether 7. Meaning 7 As. With 7 As, I can get into any top college. I wanna go London.

Talking so much wouldnt make the impossible come to be reality. I need to work for it. Work god damn hard to score straight As. So, other than studying, i have drama practices, student councillor duties and cheerleading and english debation to think about oh yeah and erm cute guys yes, and erm shopping yeah. So other then that, out you get. Ooh and yeah training for the future to become an actress.

Oh crap.. *bangs head* How the hell am I suppose to do all that altogether? *starts taking out notebook and drafting stuffs*..

Blood Countess

2004-11-21T13:14:00.000+08:00

One thing to say. Eeekkk.. Right so I couldnt really sleep much last night so I went "exploring" on the net. I have no idea, how I manage to came to view this site about Countess Elizabeth Bathory. I couldnt imagine how she could actually do all those killings and such. And believe me, you would not want to know.

She killed a total of more than 600 young virgin girls, believing that their virgin blood would make her youthful and stay young forever. Countess Bathory invented many ways of torturing her servants. Such as bathing them in the snow until they froze and putting them into a cage where spikes would then be pressed into it. Like oh my god really!

Just like Count Dracula, Countess Bathory was said to drink blood too. And they both live in transylvania. And legend or myth as you may say, brings back the history of the counts and countess who are said to be vampires and vampiress to transylvania. Seems like whatever that lived there was all the same. How did it all started though? Why would they need and want blood?

I cant help myself from not wanting to explore further. I'm hungry for knowledge at this point in time. History flows in my blood I suppose. But it'd take some time though. For my research to be completed. Ha and like what Sean said. Who knows right? We might be of royalty. After all, our bloodline goes way back to who knows where. I mean, I do not have any idea how many generations it has been. And tracing back might be difficult thinking of the fact that my grandparents dont like to talk about their parentage or past. And mom doesnt know much either.

Oh well..I think its worth a shot wanting to know. I mean, we have every right to know who we really are right? And they cant keep hiding the facts away from us. Or at least, thats what i think. Coz mom made me promise not to say anything. So Sean, keep quiet about it. Oh yeah and no way are my folks gonna pay for my crazy idea.

So, the only way is to save up my allowance. I wanna go to europe and see those castles which are filled with mystery and history. Its so much fun. How I wish I was born in Medival times. And i could live in a castle. Its so cool. *starts to daydream* Ahh, well I should be out now. Gonna go buy a notebook to record my findings. Wish me luck! I wanna know everything. People think I'm mad. Maybe it isnt so good to always be hungry for knowledge. A thirst that must be quenched. Something that must be known, something that must be fulfilled. Geesh I sound so ?? 0.O""

Wolf Rpgs

2004-11-20T22:10:00.000+08:00

Looking back, I just realized something. The very first time I started role-playing was, on the [29th of March 2004]. And my very first role-play site was Alaskan Wilderness Wolves ( Aww ). Wow thats a long time. Not even a year to be exact and I'm already and advanced role-player. Oh well with 3 versions of CG..Though I moved the site to what is of Adrasteia today.

Alpha at my own site, Lindsey's site I play 4 characters. At Aww, I play Beta highest rank I could go since I cant be Alpha. Well, erm I think thats about it for now, that I am active. Heh. Oh well.. Its been a really long way to be honest. And i'm the youngest role-playing in terms of experience. Wtf am I trying to do?? 0.O" geesh..

Lets see..Grace was the one who pulled me into wolf role-playing. And she was the one who left. ?? Was suppose to join MI together with her..Heh but I went to Aww instead. Then I went to MI..And loads other site. Geesh tide has the same name as me. Real name I mean. He's back now. Lol. Omg still remember about the tide, frost and dreamer love triangle. Lol.

I love wolves.. Has anyone role-played foxes though? Arctic foxes? hmm..So far I have done erm..wolves, immortals, humans, elfs, harry potter. Yeah mostly wolves though. Omg! Wolves are currently an endangered species and alot of them are going into extinction. What? *cries* Noooo!! *bangs head* Fine I act like some stupid dumb blonde not knowing wolves are gonna be extinct..Hmm..To be honest, I really have no idea..Not until now that it. Ahhh..*screams* This cant be happening. My favourite Arctic wolves are reportly an endangered species. *cries*

Weird Theory o.0

2004-11-20T20:45:00.000+08:00

Hmm..I haven posted for some time..Well, let me see.. I went for my 2nd braces check-up yesterday afternoon. Lucky me. Doctor Lena only put separators into my teeth. Coz my teeth has no gaps at all, wtf right? So she had to artifically create some gaps so next friday when I put my upper braces band, it'd be easier. Its not so bad after all I suppose.

*cries* When to city hall today..Actually erm Funan IT mall to be exact. Checked out the cost of Photoshop CS..What the heck..Its $1200..Omg Daddy is never gonna buy that for me..I mean not after he paid for my braces. Not that I'm very rich right? Shall go to Sim Lim Square with Grace and Zhi Wen and Frederick, and Kenneth next month perhaps. Or I could get Daddy to check it out. Besides, Dad knows loads of people at Sim Lim..Hehe..

Then, had japanese food for lunch..Yummy..Gee I have erm 5 more days to eat as much nonsense as I desire..Coz once I have those braces on, I cant eat hard and junk food. *whines* Hehe bought marshmellows today..So soft..Lol..Wanted to watch Bride and Prejudice though, but the timing was too late. Damn. Ooh I am currently blogging, listening to Pink scream on the radio and role-playing. O.0" I love wolves yes I do..

Wonders if Sam misses me though..I didnt talk to him the whole of today. I am missing him.. Oh well..

Proud Owner

2004-11-18T18:31:00.000+08:00

Hehe.. I am a proud owner right now. Of my new chat forum, ROC, and my baby yabby Sebastian. The site is doing okie at the moment now that its just officially open. I've got all the admins that I need already. Ferdd who is Shadow-x, Sam as Tristan, Lindsey as Moonlight and myself as Aistaraina. More likely, Sam will be spending most of the time on the games section, Ferdd on the arts. Ooh did I mention how great and nice Ferdd's works are?

Fantastic job well done Ferdd! He's drawings are so nice. Ooh this reminds me of Sean, he use to draw all the time. On his textbooks and on loads and loads of paper. Sean, perhaps its now time for you to concentrate on your talent. Grandma's staying over tonight yay! Geesh..Thinking of tomorrow makes me kinda uneasy. I'm going for my braces check-up thingy.

Told Sam the whole story on the "braces issue". Lol. Awww.. *hugs Grace* What happened? I read your blog. Whats wrong? Wanna tell me about it? Oh well..Family..Haiz.. Daddy's coming home early today. Need to buy dog food and yabby food. Geesh..I am so broke now..

New site

2004-11-16T16:57:00.000+08:00

Yep yep yep..hehe..I just finished creating a new forum board..Am so happy. I spent well not exactly all day. But I spent quite a while on it. I created it last minute yesterday night and spent the whole time drafting out stuff. Then only this morning did I start "actual" work on it. Its a chat forum yep. Sam is my assistant admin..Lol..

I posted some stuff on it already. Loads of OC pictures to be precise hehe..I love that show. Seriously, Sam you should watch it. I mean support local drama shows though thats in Orange County and you're situated in Riverside. It doesnt matter. Its all in California. *sings phantom planet's california* Lol..

When to office with Mom this morning then went for lunch at Eunos..Then took the train home..Then bathe..Then online till now..Ooh..pats rocky. Aint meh baby dog cute?? Hahaz.. Ooh and I just signed up and joined the OC forum. If you want the link, look under my sites section. (points to left column)..

Rayne / Shadow

2004-11-15T01:07:00.000+08:00

Okie as erm you guys should know, my good friend Rayne or some may call her Shadow..Ooh and its shadow and not shadow-x so its not Ferdd I'm referring too.

Omg am soo happy. The updates table is up. Boy! Am i glad. Hahaz. Geesh its past 1am already. Heck shall go to bed now.. Loves the site. Added 3 more affiliates today. If anyway loves to rp wolves, kindly to to my sites section and click on adrasteia. ( points to the column on the left )

The forgotten

2004-11-14T23:10:00.000+08:00

Geesh..I haven posted for 2 days. Okie fine not exactly 2. Let's see. Let's start with Saturday first. Met up with Sean and went to grandma's house for breakfast. Uncle Chris was like talking to the both of us about our future and all. You know stuffs related to school. Academic issues and such. Then went to SIM to return the books. In case some of you may not know what it is, SIM is short of Singapore Institute of Management. And that's, basically a university.

So yeah then we took the express bus 502 and went down to Orchard Road. As usual, I always watch movies at lido, shaw. The night before, Sean and I were talking about what show we should watch. I really wanna see "saw" but its nc-16 so only he can watch it but not me. *sad* *wishes to be 16 too* Then, its a decision between either "taxi" or "the forgotten" and heck so we finally decided to watch the forgotten instead. Then we got the tickets. Had lunch. Then went to check out some surfing stuff at roxy and ripcurl. Ooh the cd shop too.

The show was pretty good. And freaky, people get blown away to outer space though. Heh..That part, I was sipping ice lemon tea and jumped up. Totally freaked me. Then the second time, i was whispering to Sean and freaked out again. Then we went to Mac for some snacks. Er its Mac or Mc? Hmm..macdonald's? or mcdonald's?? Anyway, then he went home and so did I. Now, its for Sunday.

Let me see..Woke up at 2.45pm in the afternoon. Damn it really. My nose kept bleeding through the night and I couldnt sleep until the wee hours of the morning. Then read the november issue of national geographic..Helped Dad fix that stupid window that almost fall down. Had dinner. Showered then went online. Suprised Sam was still online. ^_^ Heard his voice today even though it was kinda soft.

I was so embarassed. I couldnt hear him at the start coz I did have the mic on. What the hell! *bangs head* Am so blur. But then again hey. Its my first try at it so.. As I talked to him, I checked out some stuff on national geo online and got this real cute postcard of this white arctic fox.. It's sooooooo cute!!! *giggles* Sam was chuckling when he heard me say that. Hey! *pokes him* *laughs and rolls on the bed*

I've got to get up early tomorrow. 9am there's a show on channel..er oh no! I forgot. Haiz. I've been forgetting alot of things lately so people, please remind me if i do forget something that has to do with you. Thanks. Watched a bit of the avril lavigne concert on tv and erm 2004 movie awards i think they re-air it. All the best to meh beloved cousin Sean for his O levels.. Ooh and I just noticed that Sean and Sam, both have names beginning with "s" and are both born in the same year. Hehe..

Firefox

2004-11-12T23:42:00.000+08:00

Okie so erm well Sam and Sean told me about firefox. So right heck isnt it? So oh well. I downloaded it onto the laptop and it works. Hehe. If you guys wanna use firefox too, this is the linkie -> http://www.mozilla.org/products/firefox/ . Its not bad.. But like I said, i just got it so I dont know how good it is. Anyway, I am going to bed soon. Sean and I are meeting at 9am. Hehe..

Talked to Sam for a short while earlier on. He's off to school now so I can only talk to him tomorrow when I come home. And its 10 minutes to 12.. Cute hahaz. .Talking to Sean currently on MSN..and when I go off after I blog this post, he will also go offline then we go and sleep. *cries* Must get up at 7am..Grrr.. An email? Weird at this hour? Hmmm Sam.. I'll read it laterz.. Sweet dreams to the world..

Stalker

2004-11-12T19:52:00.000+08:00

Omg!! I have no freaking idea wtf happened. Okie well.. You see there was this stupid freaking son of a bitch who kept calling my house and my mom's cell-phone. Bloody shit! My mom is making a police report now so you better watch your fucking ass!

Grrrr.. Nothing better else to do it is?? Damn you must piss me off keep calling then dont wanna talk. Go to hell larh you.. Idiot!!! I'm so sick and tired of having to pick up the phone every few minutes. Anyway, had a pretty okie day today. Heh.. Went to office with mom and talked to Sam for like erm almost the whole time there.

What a poor thing. His brother is annoying him with really nasty comments on him and his friends. Well, I understand it all. My sis and I use to bicker like crazy. *hugs* Dont feel so bad. Oh and for heaven's sake go take an aspirin if you dont feel well. Went to Pasir Ris to bank in the cheque then went to the food court and ate erm dont know whats that stuff that mom ordered. Ban mian i think or something like that.

Then to the library and borrowed 2 books. 1 on photoshop 7.0 and the other on photoshop cs. Seems pretty interesting and fun as it teaches all the features and uses of it. Was sooo cold today. Ooh and downloaded YIM today hehe. So now i have MSN and YIM..designed my very own avatar that looks like a typical Amanda. Only thingy is, my hair is not red in color anymore. I re-dyed it back to the way it was. Black with browish streaks.. hehe.

Gonna meet Sean tomorrow to go to SIM to return the books we borrowed.. Omg! I am really obsessed with sum41.. Hahaz.. Its the best punk rock band to me..that is currently larh..Lol..Ooh and i decided to name my new pet yabby as "sebastian"..hmmm.. sounds nice for a crayfish? *thinks*..

Hehe in case you people may not know what a yabby is, yabbies are mainly a type of crayfish found in the freshwaters of Australia. It is erm a detritus feeder although i have no idea what that means. It can reach a maximum size of 320g. Somehow, could someone tell me how am i to see which is a male and female? Because I wanna breed this things. Really fun. Only thing is I dont wanna end up with 2 of the same gender. Need help!!!

Omg I need to get a new digital camera so I could take pictures. *cries* BUT i am BROKE!! *whines* I wanna take the pictures of the yabbies hahaz..And rocky.. Ahh.. My research has proved its worth now I know how to tell the gender of the yabbies. Hahaz. Lol.. So the male is Sebastian and erm the female..I haven thought of the name yet so well..Heck really.

He's such a sweetie

2004-11-11T15:48:00.000+08:00

Yep.. Sam is such a sweetie really. He did another erm what do you call that? Erm..It was something like what he did for me earlier..But its with animation and its in baby pink. Sooo cute.. *giggles*.. Yay! He doesnt have school tomorrow which means he can stay up and talk to me. Isnt that great? But I have to be at uncle Kumar's. We're leaving at 6pm.

Packed my school books for next year earlier with Mum's help. Wrote my name for every book..So tired..Then cleared some space because Uncle Eddie is coming over to stay on friday. Sam's real nice. Hehe now, his blog and blog have the same music. Linkin park's "my december".. I love this song sooo much. He's sooo sweet Sam.. Lol..

Ooh and Sean have ya forgotten that your cousin over here ( waves hand ) is a Ancient egyptian history and myth craz?.. Its practically my life studying it and reading on it. So yep I know who thoth is. Just that I dont really remember what kinda God he is. Shall read ya blog to refresh meh memory. Oh my god and I am so sorry Sam.. I haven asked yet. It's just I've been busy and it kinda slipped off my mind.

Oh and what time can you make it on Saturday Sean? Is erm 9 or 10 okie with you? I'll erm confirm the time again and message you by friday night. Haiz.. Cant bear to throw my history stuffs. So sad *cries*.. It is er I think the only subject that I scored always close to full marks.

( sings to phantom planet's california )
( gets reminded of Sam living in riverside )

Not that my geography isnt good, its as good as history. But I'm taking geography for next year. Sean, pass me all your notes after your O Levels can? Study notes, self-written ones anything. I must start preparing now for my O levels although its 2 years from now. But I need top grades to get into a good school afterwards. So i will do all i can and must to achieve that goal.

Something Sam did

2004-11-11T12:47:00.000+08:00

Sam did this picture thingy for me during his 6th period class to day at school. Am very surprised he wasnt caught for doing this in class. Hmmm..not too sure if the effects are on or not. Hope it does though it doesnt show up on my photobucket album. Okie..erm I shall try to see if it works.. Omg I am getting so blur.. Brain aint function properly today. Ooh by the way, Happy Deepavali to all Hindus in Singapore.. Yep going to Uncle Kumar's house later to celebrate although I am not a hindi. Heh.

Bands

2004-11-10T19:40:00.001+08:00

I have gone really crazy over music today. And I mean really "crazy" "obsessed even. Lol. I love Sum 41 more than ever now. Some of my favourite tracks are "in too deep", "the hell song", "what we're all about", " we're all to blame".. As for Linkin Park, I love every song. Heh ^_^.. Blink 182, Hoobastank, Simple Plan, Maroon 5, Yellowcard, Dashboard Confessional, The Rasmus, No doubt and Limp Bizkit..

I'm a very huge fan of Breaking Benjamin, Switchfoot and Linkin Park..hehe..Okie thats erm a combination of punk rock and rock right? *thinks* Loves Gareth Gates..Ryan Cabrera..Hahaz.. Am music crazy tonight.. Not that I am not one..lol..Just that today I'm much more obsessed. Tomorrow is deepavali..Yep public holiday.. Woohoo!! hehe..
Downloaded so many Sum 41 videos today.. Geesh haahaz..So what am i?A movie craz yep..A music craz yes yes.. Shopping craz.. 0.O totally..swimming..hehe..

We're All To Blame Lyrics

2004-11-10T19:40:00.000+08:00

We're All To Blame Lyrics ( sum 41 )

Take everything left of me. ( All to blame )
How can we still succeed, taking what we dont need?
Telling lies, alibis, selling all the hate that we breed.
Supersize our tragedy!
( You cant defy me, of justify greed! )
Bought in the land of the free
( The free! )

And we're all to blame,
We've got too far,
From pride to shame,
We're trying so hard,
We're dying in vain,
We're all hopelessly blissful and blind
To all we are,
We want it all with no sacrifice!

Realize we spend our lives living in a culture of fear.
Stand to salute; say thanks to the man of the year.
How did we all come to this?
(You can’t defy me, or justify greed!)
It's greed that we just can't resist!
(Resist!)

And we're all too blame,
We've gone too far,
From pride to shame,
We're trying so hard,
We're dying in vain,
We're hopelessly blissful and blind
To all we are,
We want it all.
We want it all with no sacrifice!

Tell me now, what have we done?
We don't know.
I can't allow what is being done to tear it down,
Believe me now, we don't know just what
With our backs against the wall.

And now we're all too blame,
We've gone too far,
From pride to shame,
We're hopelessly blissful and blind
When all we needIs something true
I do believe,
Don't we all?
Everyone, everyone,
We will fall.

'Cause we're all to blame
We've gone too far,
From pride to shame,
We're trying so hard,
We're dying in vain,
We want it all,
Everyone, don't we all?

2004-11-10T15:29:00.000+08:00

Which Guilty Gear X character are you?

Well.. I just got home.. Took a cab and used up all my remaining allowance..Oh well..heh Sam is soooo sweet hehe..Ooh and did I mention that Sam had a new bloggy? Hehe.. Its anime.. Yay! = ) I love animes..Is final fantasy even considered anime? 0.O" oh heck rocky is barking again..Chatted with Sam for a long time since this morning. He is such a nice person to talk to. Ooh so sad. Amber, zul, alif and farhan are in the same class..Grace and shondy and Jun Jie in the same..

*sings utada hikaru's first love*

I love this song soooo much..*falls in love* *starts daydreaming* I dont know why though. But I feel kinda odd lately.. I just dont and cant explain that feeling though. *curious* Oh well.. I shall go bath now..

Quizzes

2004-11-10T12:24:00.000+08:00

Imagination

Party At East Coast

2004-11-09T23:24:00.000+08:00

Well.. hehe went to school to check out my posting results. And guess what? My nightmare came true. I got into POA.. POA= Principals of Accounts.. *stressed* Omg.. Mum is like sooo pro in Accountancy. My life now has become a living nightmare. Geesh..Grace went to the last class..And she's in art.. Aini is in erm Food and Nutrition. Li Hui ended up with me..

Oh well.. went to simei for sushi..then erm popular there to get book covers..oh and did I mention that I already have my next year's textbooks and all. Unbelievable..I'm like writing my name on it and typing also. Heh..Got the webcam and microphone from Grace today. The webcam from Frederick though.

Had loads of fun at the party today. Hmmm.. Nicky has a classmate called Aloysius and he is a teen actor and he is pretty "hot" lol.. I couldnt believe it! Netto came. After we graduated, I never saw him for 2 years and then suddenly there he is behind me saying hi. Cute. ^_^.. Had bbq or rather campfire marshmellows.. Love it..Ooh and its the first time in my life that I actually ate bbq crabstick.. Weird huh? 0.O"" Hahaz..Jerlin and Silas bought like erm 24 cans of drink and most of it were gone. Okie Cai Li took 1 can and I took the last one and shared it with Jerlin, Nicky and myself. Then, Nicky and I had to go buy more drinks and ice.. Grrr were so freaking heavy and the guys didnt help.

Like so funny. So many people sharing the same thing. And poor Jerlin.. he ate 2 chicken wings and both were not totally cooked.. Aww.. Lol..Nicky had this really funny friend.. I forgot his name though. Heh. He was sooo into bbqing the food and my marshmellows were close to melting.. Lol.. I really missed all of them. Loved hongping's new hair color.. Blond, brown and black.. Mine is only black and brown.. I want it to be red I dont care!! Got home around 10 plus or so.. Yep..

Oh well Sean, the project is pretty cool yep it is.. I mean reading all that stuff is fascinating isnt it? But I'm taking Geography next year though. Too bad.. You want the link though? To all 24 chapters of his life and all. I think I posted it already in the earlier post. Go see..And if you dont find any, ask from me and I'll give it to ya. = )

I've got sooo many books.. But definitely much less than what I had in secondary 1 and 2. Awww well.. I'm sooo gonna miss my first 2 years of high school. Thats the best time I had. Met great friends. Had great acting opportunites..Fantastic teachers and all. Thanks everyone. Sarah says william is in the same class with me for next year.. I cant bring myself to accept that fact. Why must he be in the same class as me??

*shocked* *embarassed* *gonna feel real "awkward"
( because in secondary 1, he was my bf and now that we broke up.. heh )

Added Dirah already. Thanks girl! Samuel doesnt seem to update his blog at all somehow.. Wonder what is he doing now..*looks at clock*
Its 11.17pm at night now..Ooh must be sleeping heh.. ^_^ hopes he sleeps well.. *yawns* I am so tired.. Counting down, 2 weeks of winter vacation has past me by already. So I have 1 and a half months left before school re-opens.. And I have student councillor meeting and duty and I dont remember when it is.. *bangs head* Seems like today's blog entry is really long. Heh ooh and Su lei had to leave early because his guardian wants him home.. Oh well its alright.. We'd hang out some other time.

Errrr.. Could hardly pay attention to anything at all.. I'm going to sleep soon..Sweet dreams to all..

Boredom can be a killer

2004-11-08T00:15:00.000+08:00

Am sooooo bored.. *starts to wine* Is that even the right spelling? Oh blah heck. ..Hmmm.. Yay!! Rayne or rather Shadow is gonna do up a updates table for me.. Hehe oh wait its for my site..And she fixed my avatar.. Wow extremely huge i would say.. But lovely.. ^_^ Can believe I am blogging right now..When I suppose to be doing my stupid hitler project. How sick. ( rolls eyes).. Sam and Ferdd are away playing that "addictive" game.. Haiz.. I love my blog. Heh.

Grace was really cute earlier.. I talked to her on the phone and when our conversation ended, she said : " bye i love ya sis" Aint that sweet? Lol.. She's watching some movie with Salima..and Malcom.. hmm.. And yeah Grace.. Its Benedict you will hear.. Hehe prepare to be haunted wuahaha.. Haiz Amber is back from Korea.. Cool.. First I was sooo pissed that he didnt call me or sms me when he got back.. Turns out, he did sms me..Only thing was.. I never gotten it.. Its like wtf right?

Oh well.. friends are indeed really important to us. Mum and Uncle Kumar are chatting right now.. dad's busy with some software.. And charmaine's in school..I'm in Mum's office using one of the computers..Blogging..On msn..Worst thing.. The com has no speakers.. Haiz ya!! Heh I noticed Sean got addicted to blogging..Cool just like me.. ^_^ Am hungry mum *tries to scream*

I'm currently reading the history of Adolf Hitler. All 24 chapters of his entire life. Check out the link. http://www.historyplace.com/worldwar2/riseofhitler/ It's really useful for the project. Cool really. It contains all..everything..Ooh well okie am going for lunch now.. Shall blog again later..

Samuel

2004-11-07T17:34:00.000+08:00

Okie.. I dont know why but Sam and I have sorta been really close lately. ^_^.. He's real nice I mean, okie he stayed up till 4am to talk to me. And I stayed up till 305am to talk to him. Heh oh well. We role-played a little today and it was his first time role-playing wolves. Pretty amazing actually. Could tell he tried to put himself into the wolf he was role-playing. Sorry if I sounded mean though. Was just trying to help you on it.

Perhaps its just that stupid habit of mine. So used to correcting stuffs. An advanced role-player. What do you think? Mainly, the only thing I seem to be able to role-play are wolves, which is the best i'm at, summoner, immortals and a little bit of fantasy such as Lord of the rings and stuff. Had to disappoint Rayne. I told him i couldnt help him out as Alpha on his site. I've got far too many things to deal with now. I'm really sorry. Not that I dont want. But I just cant.

Played monopoly for like sooo many hours. Really that game can be pretty addictive. And never-ending too. Lol. *cries* There is no OC this thursday because of deepavali. Why?? I've got to wait till next week. So sad. I really love that show. And surprisingly, Anaheim is also known as the Orange County if I'm not wrong. Cool huh?.. Sam says thats pretty close to Riverside. Did some of my Hitler project. Found loads of pictures of him. Fantastic really. ^_^

I really wonder if that new game Sam and Ferdd are playing is really that fun. I mean they have been at it for ages. Hours in fact. Hmmm.. A very addictive game too. Hahaz. Talked to Wess for quite a bit over the past few days. Poor thing. I hate those guys who played cheat and played dirty. Wess dont worry too much yeah? These people have no sportsmanship. None at all.

Can I say that I am an OC addict? Oh well.. heh.. Its the best I ever know really. Glad that Sam loved that music from Legend Of Zelda. The one song that I love too. The wind waker-ancient hero from the OST soundtrack..Its the remix version the one I've got. *Yawns* A little weary now. Shall go nap before dinner first.

Ferdd

2004-11-06T12:53:00.000+08:00

Okie first I must thank Ferdd.. Hmm..Because he showed me 2 great sites.. So *hugs*.. Grace dear dont get "jealous' okie? It was just a friendly hug.. So dont worry lol..

Check this out :

1 ) www.gaiaonline.com
Comments on site : Its fun yeah. You get to create your own character, have fun, role-play, chat and all that stuff.

2 ) www.deviantart.com
Comments on site : I love this one man. Okie this site, basically is where you can post your drawings, photos, anything. Basically, all your art work. Really cool site. People can rate your work and give you comments on it.

3 ) http://aistaraina-sephoria.deviantart.com
Comments on site : Okie this is my site okie. Its my sorta "domain" hehe its gonna be where I post my works and all. But not at the moment. So look out towards the near future. Check it and refresh to see new stuffs.

4 ) http://www.writing.com/main/view_item.php?user_id=mystifiedreamz
Comments on site : This is my own space where I post all my stories, poetry and stuff. A place where I let people see my work stuffs that I've written and all.

Blah I so hope to get started with Deviantart..but then again..*cries* I can upload any shit at all..Oh well..Heh ooh and I emailed Sam and told him about it too. Hope he have loads of fun with it as I did. ^_^...Its a bright and sunny Saturday afternoon. Dad and Mum are both not around..Cept for me, my sis and the dog and the maid..hmmm..

2004-11-01T18:20:00.000+08:00

oh well..didnt really have a good night's sleep..Mum was sick again..Blah..Oh well..Haiz..Then woke up at 6am used the com to chat with Rayne and Moonlight before they went to bed..They live in the States so its like we're in different time zones..Lol..Sam and i should be around 15 hours..Rayne and I 12 hours or soo..Oh well..

Rayne and I moved Adrasteia to invision by the way. Cant recall if I blogged that the night before or not. Heh..Awww Sam dont sound so sad okie? Its only a few years..Lol..Hehe..Guess what? My bedroom window came out. And it was pouring so my maid took trash bags so cover it..Lol..Then we spent the whole afternoon helping Dad fix it..So tired..

*Screams* Omg I found the Legend Of Zelda overclock remix..Yes.lol..Oh Zing, the url you gave me is not valid anymore..Haiz..Now I have trouble trying to make this the site's theme music..Heh..I'm so tired..Lol..Yep tonight there's Toro..Lol..Hehe go shower first..

Role-playing

2004-10-31T22:58:00.000+08:00

Did I mention that I totally adore role-playing? Uh-huh..Yeps I found this site which doesnt have so many members so I decided to join..And yes its always wolf though I make a exception at times..Heh..Lets see what sites do I role-play at?

1 ) Alaskan Wilderness Wolves
2 ) Land Of Adrasteia
3 ) Moonlight River Wolf Pack
4 ) Shattered Dreams
5 ) Cairbara

Geesh..Unbelievable..I only role-play at 5 sites..Hmmm thats good so I wouldnt spent too much time on it..Better than the 30 sites I use to be on..Heh that was certified killer really..Lol..ooh its almost midnight and I'm listening to Jennifer Lopez's "if you had my love"..Ooh and I've decided to move Adrasteia to invisionfree instead of using proboards..Cause invision would look more of a formal and proper role-play site..Oh well Rayne has gona to church its like er 9 plus 10 am there I reckon..Going to Mummy's office tomorrow..heh..She wants to supervise me on my chinese..Damn my chinese..

Day Out

2004-10-31T17:38:00.000+08:00

Hmmm..Woke up at close to 12.15..Went to bedok ate chicken rice then went to the library and got some books on british monarchy..ooh prince william..hehe..Then took a cab down to chinatown to get crystals to do that necklace..damn the swaroski's crystals..So lazy to blog today lol.Die man..tomorrow's the day i suffer..10 pages of chinese assessment daily..haiz..

Someday We'd know Lyrics

2004-10-31T17:32:00.000+08:00

Someday We'd Know

Ninety miles outside
Chicago can't stop driving
I don't know why
So many questions,
That need an answer
Two years later,
you're still on my mind
Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart
Who holds the stars up in the sky
Is true love just once in a lifetime
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why
I wasn't meant for you

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
What the wind says when she cries?
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninety-seventh time, tonight

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know that
I was the one for you
I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watch the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me, tonight?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why
I wasn't meant for you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know that I was the one for you

Breaking Benjamin - So Cold Lyrics

2004-10-31T17:15:00.000+08:00

Did i mention how much I love breaking benjamin's so cold?

So Cold

VERSE 1:
Crowded streets are cleared away
One by one
Hollow heroes separate
As they run
You're so cold
Keep your hand in mine
Wise men wonder while strong men die

Chorus:
Show me how it ends its all right
Show me how defenseless you really are
Satisfied and empty inside
Well that's alright
Let's give this another try

Verse 2:
If you find your family
Don't you cry
In this land of make believe
Dead and dry
You're so coldbut you feel alive
Lay your hand on me
One last time

<-- Chorus -->

Guitar Bridge

<-- Chorus -->

(It's Alright) repeat x8

Shark Tale

2004-10-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

Ooh I just got home from Tampines mall..Watched the sneak preview of "shark tale"..Soooooo cute..Lol..Heh..Went to orchard to get the chinese assessment books and then to er scotts for a while then to wheelock for lunch at Nooch..Then walked for a while at Taka..Ooh went to Forever 21 then Zara..Seriously, Zara's clothes are way better..Lol

Then I went to kino while Mum went to er the basement the food area there..And there was this Zoe tay autograph session for her 2005 calendar..Read a book on polar bears while I was there..They were so adorable..*giggles*..

Came home for dinner then out to Tampines mall to watch Shark Tale..Book the tickets through internet using the credit card..Damn must pay extra booking fee..It was soooo nice..The shark was like a vegetarian and all..So hilarious..Ooh and angelina jolie was like sexy lola..Renee was er this bestfriend of will smith..Dont really remember their names..Then went to the supermarket and bought loads of stuff since Mum had this coupon thingy so its free..4o bucks worth of junk food..heh..Food provision for the vacation..am gonna go talk to Rayne soon..

Last Day Of School

2004-10-29T20:49:00.000+08:00

Well today is the last day of school and as you know..The day we got back our report books..Needless to say I was obviously very very tense about it all. So went to the hall for the dialogue session..Was totally dying of boredom..Lol..Then all student councillors must remain in the hall for a meeting..Yep on the 29th November a farewell councillor bbq party. .then i forgot when must report to Mr Yee..then a secondary one 2005 candidates registration..So many councillor duty for the holidays.

Oh well..Heh next year my uniform would have 2 extra strips..lol..Then went back to class at 9.45 am..Quickly re-wipe my table with that dirty cloth even though Aini already clean it for me..Blah then Mdm Naimah gave back the report books..My last year together with the 40 of us not including shabir..*cries* Really gonna miss everyone. .Took photos with Mrs Jan Yap and Mdm Naimah with that Clements inside too and Aini..Lol..

Mum didnt really scold much but just started to nag..As per normal..parents..So slept the whole day since I got home from school..then went to geylang serai for the hari raya thingy..Lol..Got myself another henna tattoo..Lol..Every year I also do at least 1..Heh..Oh well..Mum wants to buy loads of chinese assessment books for me..For chinese..Stressed man..Cause my chinese is really horrendous so she wants me to practice..( kills myself ) so tough man..Lol..Ooh that Toro show is coming on pretty soon..Ooh and Shiya dont feel so bad about Tzu Hao yeah?..Guys will always remain guys..

Geography Field Trip

2004-10-28T19:41:00.000+08:00

Today as I had mention in my earlier post, I went to Ulu Pandan's incineration plant. It was pretty cool but the trip was way to short. So this was what happened. We got on the bus at around 8.30am the head straight for Ulu Pandan. Aini, Grace, Presley, Clements and I sat right at the back where the 5 seater was. So pretty much obvious you'd roughly know what'd happened right?..

As usual Mr Presley Teo the "one" and only snack supplier of the class lol..We ate chips and sweets and loads of junk food. Had a nice time indeed. When we got there, the whole bus was filled with laughter and shouts all over. Ivan claims the incineration plant to be Jian Wei's home..Lol..

First stop was the conference room whereby we watched a video on the various incineration plants in Singapore and the whole incineration process. And the the instructor gave another re-cap on what we watched explaining the process using this huge diagram. The effects were fantastic..Loved the lighting used. Especially the fire..Really cool.

Then we actually had a tour of the incineration plant itself. Blah we went to where the rubbish was dumped. Jesus really I almost fainted from that unbearable smell. Then we went to the boiler where they burn the rubbish at very high temperature. Then we saw how the metal come about. Then out of the place. Saw the chimney. It was so freaking tall. Its like 150metres tall.

Took the bus home with Presley sitting in front and the remaining 4 of us at the back still. Slept throughout the journey back. Fell on Grace when the bus turned and I couldnt feel a thing. Blah. Sorry if you got smashed. Hahaz..Yep school ends at 10am tomorrow. Gonna get back report books but not the stream we'd be in. Really stressed up now. Mum wants to appeal. Of well.

Feeling quite sad right now. I'm having this feeling that the 4 of us bestfriends are gonna be seperated. *cries*..I wanna say thanks for everything. I really had alot of fun and happiness throughout this 2 years. Its gonna be the most memorable time of my life as it is the beginning of me being a teenager. Its really the best time of my life. I love you all. And to William, Kenneth, Stephen and Tzu Hao..You guys really brought me love and although we broke up, I wanna thank you for all the love you gave. -hugs- and -kisses-

Another private journal

2004-10-28T06:04:00.000+08:00

Wuahhahaha..I am mental for the day yeah..Sorry Sam but I doubt I wanna use the other one so there you go. Its currently 6.04am and there's a few more minutes before I leave for school. Guess this blog is prepared for next year.

So I dont plan to let anyone know about this blog. 'Private' as it is. Lol. Going to Ulu Pandan today. Some incineration plant I reckon. Its the Geography field trip of the year. Li Hui is not coming again as usual. Heh..on the 29th of November, there's gonna be a student councillor party..Ooh..

And when I was online yesterday night, I searched for a new elvish cum welsh name and combined it with the pure elvish and ta ta came out with this - > adrasteia-sephoria wuahaha..Cute huh?..Lol..Haiz gotta run..

..[[** I'm wishing on a star **]]..